BABY STEPS
The older I get the busier life seems and my “Purpose” gets cloudier. I have mentioned in previous posts that writing has been a calling my entire life and when I take the time to express my experiences on paper my reason for being surfaces. Having said that there shouldn’t be any clouds in front of my search of what brings me to life. But, here I am again attempting to climb a mountain with large reaches instead of the baby steps I know I should be taking.
I Awake every day with optimism, direction and intention but my lack of boundaries provides ample opportunity for detours to derail me. The energy I get from pleasing others consumes me until I realize through exhaustion that it is merely a false sense of self and leaves no room for me to be “Me”. I cannot blame anyone for my inability to stay focused for it is a learned behavior I adopted as a child to cope with daily life. It worked for many years and played a big part of my many wonderful life experiences but now it’s time for me to modify this technique and allow My voice to be heard. Bringing joy to others will always be a part of my make up but how I go about it needs some adjusting. During this lifetime of almost 57 years and being the youngest of 6 children and now the matriarch of A family of 8, there are many ways I can share or help others through my stories and writing. This way of reaching out will be a comfort to my unaging soul enveloped in this body. I love hearing about life through people of all ages for it always brings a sense of hope or nostalgia to my heart. Listening is my gift and for that I am grateful and treasure every second of it. This gift has brought me to life in my darkest moments and has been a teacher for me in recognizing so many of our God given blessings we are surrounded with.
Today I am taking Baby Steps and having shared this with you has once again replenished my sense of purpose. I am thankful for this opportunity to share my thoughts with others and I will continue to listen and learn through all that life brings my way, perhaps even from you!!